In my Ultrasound page, I talked about how when given the option to terminate, I had a brief moment of hesitancy, where in this place of fear I was experiencing it felt strangely easy to think about the possibility of giving in to it.  This moment was very brief, more like a thought that just crossed my mind, for it all seemed like a very bad dream at the time, but still, it was there. 

Which brings me to my point that I want to bring up.  For many years, I had the conviction, the belief, the knowledge, that life begins at conception, that life is not a “choice” to end just because it happens to be forming inside a woman’s body, whom more than likely (98% of the time, according to statistics) had some part and decision in the actions that led to the baby being formed in the body in the first place, and that to take away a life was God’s decision alone.  To put it simply:  I was pro-life.  SOOO….for me, whom had this firm conviction for so long, to have had even just a brief thought of how terminating a baby could somehow make things easier — no more fear of the unknown, no more worries of what might happen, no more of this anxiety, for me or the baby – then why it is common practice to ask anyone and everyone this question the first moment they learn about something “wrong” with their baby, is beyond me.  I at least had many years of being able to, in a sense, make my decision.  But for the woman who has not thought about it, who has no set views or beliefs on the matter, who is not informed….how much more unfair it is to throw that news, that “choice” (please note the quotes), in front of her.  I could not even think straight in that moment, how the……..heck…….is that someone else going to be able to think straight…at all? 

The other point I want to bring up is this:  I realize that some people are pro-choice.  But, I feel this is partly due to society’s great ability to keep people uninformed of the reality.  In fact, I had no real “opinion” on the matter of abortions until college, when I went to a presentation by a speaker whom – I can’t even remember – I think she may have gone through with an abortion and was speaking of her regrets or..something like that.  It doesn’t matter, because what was presented there, and what had the most impact on me, were the facts about abortion — what they do to the baby to terminate it, before, during, after — there were description, pictures, stories –and I literally felt sick afterwards.  I could not believe I had not known any of this before.  I was mad.  Mad that people were doing this, but even madder that people did not know this.   And that included me.  People do not know.  People do not want to know.  And, so though I realize that many people are pro-”choice”, I also realize that many of these same people – not all, but many – just do not know.  And, so, though other Christians, such as me now, have the pro-life stance simply because we know that God values life and that taking away life is against his law and his will, I realize that there are many people out there who do not have this Christian faith.  And so there has got to be a way to inform people of the truths and realities of abortion.  Society as a whole does not want to know the truth - it’s too scary, too gross, too graphic – and the result is ignorance, and as a result of that, millions of unborn babies killed. 

I cannot imagine not having Renny.  She is BEAUTIFUL, she is WONDERFUL, she is AMAZING, she is AWESOME, and just as importantly, she has and will continue to have a FULL life, and except for maybe a few physical limitations, a NORMAL life.  You CANNOT listen to the worse case scenarios that the doctors give.  It just does not always happen.  And even if it does, I’d be willing to bet everything that that baby will still be BEAUTFUL, WONDERFUL, AMAZING, and AWESOME.  I see it all of the time.